Didn’t get much sleep last night….I had way too much on my mind. I’ve been in such a funk of a mood for awhile, and it’s been hard for me to pull out of it. I think that the worst place anyone can be…is in their own head, and I’ve been in mine for way longer than I should ever be! BUT WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!? My life is going great! Of course it’s not perfect but for the most part….I have a life that would make some people say, “What the hell is there to even be down about??!!!??”… Im not rich but I have that all American type of family. I have the most amazing man in the world….who I will soon be marrying, and if there were ever a perfect person or perfect man….my fiancé would be that person. I have two very happy, healthy, and lovable babies…who make my world go round, and are who makes my heart beat. So why am I in this rut of a mood??? I still don’t really know but I’m doing whatever I have to to change it. But this morning I was reading my daily positive affirmations…..and I got to thinking…there have been a few changes in the way I’ve been viewing things, and with how much I’ve been in my head…I managed to turn some not so bad issues into something really negative….which have affected my daily life…my actions….and then in time those actions have turned into some negative habits. That’s the conclusion that I came too….so it’s changing the way I think and my outlook on all issues I will have to deal with, because that’s life. So first…I’m need to get out of my crazy ass head, and for two… I need to change how I think and look at things, and for three….I need to be more aware of how I am acting….because the habits that are created by our actions can go either way…and I don’t need any bad habits…..I just spent a lot of time working on old bad habits,and I’m sure as shit not going thru that hell again. I’ve worked so hard to get to this point in my life…. I’ll be damned if I screw it all up now. Okayyyyy…..there’s some venting for today! Now it’s time to put all my thoughts and words into action. It will get better.